28 June 2007

妈妈的生日




6月24日,星期日,是妈妈的生日。我送了她一束花(花好漂亮吧?!),我和父亲也‘打包’了妈妈喜欢吃的面(Heng Hwa Mee Sua),全家人一起共经晚餐。

因为妈妈的病情在一年前恶化,所以除了每个月一次到医院复诊以外,或则偶尔下楼理发和按摩脚底之外,其余的时间都呆在家里休息。

已经很久没和妈妈一起逛街了,非常想念和妈妈逛街的日子。妈妈的品味和打扮非常地时髦,有时还会取笑我是‘老古董’。

有时我会想,对于现在的生活方式,她适应了多少。好在教会的牧师和教会的会友,偶尔会上我们家探望她,鼓励她,与她分享圣经的话语,与她祷告。让她不会觉得寂寞与孤单。

还有主耶稣安排的‘天使’,惠珊(Huishan),在妈妈生日的前几天,她还买了一些糕点和写了一张鼓励的字条给我的母亲。虽然她并不晓得我母亲的生日,不过她的探望和举动,都让人觉得很贴心。惠珊,你的名字和你的人,都和你的心一样美丽。You truly make her day.

20 June 2007

An Afternoon with Charrisa (19 June 2007)






































































My 'daughter', I count it a privilege to be able to witness how you have grown and changed over the years from when you were in Primary 6 to when you came into the youth ministry to now.
Although I was rather sad when you left church last year, I feel comforted and relieved to see that you've adjusted well to your new church - Evangel Family Church, which is at Yishun.
I take comfort in that you've found peers with whom you could connect and a female assistant cell-group leader (Mae) with whom you feel close to.
I guess the process of finding a church for yourself has caused you to mature in your thinking, your character and your walk with God.
The maturity is expressed out in your choice of friends, your goal-orientedness, your ability to reflect and make changes, your ability to deal with disappointments, your ability to comfort and encourage others.
I am proud of you. When I think of you, I'm reminded of a Bible verse which I would like to leave you with:
'Don't let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity.' - 1 Timothy 4:12 (NLT)
Jia you, as you continue in this journey of becoming all that you can be in God! =)

18 June 2007

Unforgettable

I am back from the night trek! It has been a ‘Wow!’ experience!

The youths were divided into 3 groups, namely Pirates of the Griffin, Pirates of the Phoenix and Pirates of the Unicorn (my group). Their mission was to complete their map that will help them sail to “World’s End”.

The walk started from Friday 10pm to Saturday 8am. We began at the West Coast Park (where the 3 groups were to find their gold coins at the ‘Ghost Ship’), and from there proceeded on to Kent Ridge Park (where the youths did their solo walk on the bridge), Labrador Park (where the youths went on a scavenger hunt) and Vivo City (where the debriefing and processing of their experiences were done in the 3 groups).

The “World’s End” was actually Mount Faber. However, as there was lightning when we were about to set off from the Labrador Park, we decided to change our final destination to Vivo City instead, for safety reason.

The purpose of the night trek and its activities is to allow the youths to learn about choice-making. With every choice or decision you make, it comes with a price that you need to pay. If you want to make a better choice, you need to pay a bigger price and make more sacrifices (For example, delayed gratification). What kind of choices would they decide to make in their lives?

They could choose to exchange 2 gold coins for 1 piece of the map, or 5 gold coins for 7 pieces of the map. They could also choose to use the gold coins to exchange for snacks along the way
(Hee….I was contemplating to use real coins to exchange for Kit Kat chocolate bars, but of course I was unsuccessful lah, because my beloved colleagues said ‘No!’).

This night trek is an unforgettable and memorable one for me personally. Other than this being my very first time in bringing a group of youths on a night trek expedition, here is also where:

I witnessed an incident where a youth became demon-possessed during the solo walk at Kent Ridge Park but was ultimately delivered;

I learnt that the phrase ‘Wear Shirt’ is a youth lingo which means joining a gang;

I witnessed puppy love blossoming among the youths within such a short time and

I realized that I seemed to have the ‘谈心事’anointing, as the different youths whom I walked with at different places will start sharing with me their ‘心事’ or secrets (A and B like C, but C like only B, A and B become angry with each other, B and C get together, D become very worried for A and at a lost of what to do when A cried over the phone…..their puppy love story is so complicated).

I was also privileged enough to hear a volunteer’s life story as he shared it with the youths in my group. He used to be involved in gang and drugs. He has been beaten up by his gang members before when he decided to leave the gang, and he also realized that these so-called ‘brothers’ never once visited him and were never there for him when he was in trouble. But he is a changed person now, studying in a tertiary institution and having a bright future ahead of him.

I will never forget the words which he said, “That time I find it very irritating, that the social worker who will not know what you are thinking and why you do the things you do, just barged into your life like that and nag nag nag. But when my family gave up on me and my school gave up on me, my social worker she never gave up on me. She fought very hard for me to have a place in school so that I could take my exam. That touched me at that point and I decided to go back to school to take my ‘O’ level exam." His words impacted me.

11 June 2007

爱的代价


我在祷告的时候有跟主说过,也和几位朋友分享过,“I am a simple person. I just want to be God’s love wrapped in skin. All I want is to see the people in my life, especially those who are dear to my heart, become all that they can be in God. And I want to be a part in supporting them in this journey”。牧师在为我祷告的时候,也是这样说的,“that I will carry God’s love to the people around me and I will shine into their lives”。

听起来这是一件很容易很简单的事,可是要真正的活出来却不是一件容易的事。

当你关心的人,决定放弃自己。。。
当你关心的人,决定放弃尝试。。。
当你关心的人,否定你所为他做的一切。。。
又或者,
曾经是你生活的一部分,与你很亲的人
因为某些原因,离开了或者你失去了。。。
那种无奈,无助,伤痛,你又如何去处理呢?

是决定要把自己封闭起来,每天就好像机器人般的,没有感情地做自己分内的事就够了?还是要勇敢地去爱,去关心呢?人在遇到挫折或伤痛的时候,往往都会选择最容易的解决方式 – 逃避,放弃,结束关系。

哥 林 多 前 书 (1 Corinthians)12:31, 13:1-8,13
“你 们 要 切 切 地 求 那 更 大 的 恩 赐 , 我 现 今 把 最 妙 的 道 指 示 你 们 。我 若 能 说 万 人 的 方 言 , 并 天 使 的 话 语 却 没 有 爱 , 我 就 成 了 鸣 的 锣 , 响 的 钹 一 般 。我 若 有 先 知 讲 道 之 能 , 也 明 白 各 样 的 奥 秘 , 各 样 的 知 识 。 而 且 有 全 备 的 信 , 叫 我 能 够 移 山 , 却 没 有 爱 , 我 就 算 不 得 什 么 。我 若 将 所 有 的 周 济 穷 人 , 又 舍 己 身 叫 人 焚 烧 , 却 没 有 爱 , 仍 然 与 我 无 益 。爱 是 恒 久 忍 耐 , 又 有 恩 慈 。 爱 是 不 嫉 妒 。 爱 是 不 自 夸 。 不 张 狂 。不 作 害 羞 的 事 。 不 求 自 己 的 益 处 。 不 轻 易 发 怒 。 不 计 算 人 的 恶 。不 喜 欢 不 义 。 只 喜 欢 真 理 。凡 事 包 容 。 凡 事 相 信 。 凡 事 盼 望 。 凡 事 忍 耐 。爱 是 永 不 止 息 。。。如 今 常 存 的 有 信 , 有 望 , 有 爱 , 这 三 样 , 其 中 最 大 的 是 爱 。”

如果失去了爱人和关心人的能力, 生活就过得没有意义了。我相信有主耶稣这位医生,有时间作为良药,我们还是可以每天选择做一个勇敢去爱的人。

08 June 2007

找到了!

太高兴了,我终于找到我要的那首歌了。这是我在教会敬拜的时候唱的一首歌,歌名叫‘Come Holy Spirit’。我还发现原来这首歌是‘City Harvest Church’创作的,还有华文版本呢。我本身非常认同这首歌的歌词,这首歌的心声。这首歌是这样唱的:

Come Holy Spirit, fall on me now
I need Your anointing, come in Your power
I love You Holy Spirit
You're captivating my soul
And everyday I grow to love You more

Chorus:
I'm reaching for Your heart
You hold my life in Your hand
Drawing me closer to You
I feel Your power renew
Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see You face to face
I worship You
In spirit and in truth

Come Holy Spirit (华文版)

圣灵请你来充满我心
我需要你恩高充满我灵
圣灵啊我好爱你
我的灵让你牵引
而每一天我要更深爱你

我要追求你主
我将生命献给你
牵引我更亲近你
你大能更新我灵
无人能与你相比
主我仰望你的荣面
我敬拜你
在灵与真理里

07 June 2007

我生活中的暖炉



我觉得我是个幸福的人,因为我生活中有暖炉。这些‘暖炉’让我的心觉得很温暖。

我的‘暖炉’指的就是这些人:

  1. Huishan/Hester: 她千里迢迢从应征工作的地方来到我的工作地点,跟我共进午餐。还发了一个鼓励我的简讯给我。在简讯里她是这么写的:‘Hey I'm really happy to see the changes and growth in you. As a result, you have become more beautiful, just like a diamond. One day, someone will see the diamond in you. Also remember that you have me as your good friend.'

  2. Shuhui: 她在繁忙的工作中,还会买一束胡姬花送给我,让我在工作中多了一份惊喜。

  3. Felicia: 她教会了我如何照顾和保护我的脚,让我疲惫的双脚能够‘起死回生’。哈哈哈哈

  4. Melvin: 他亲切的笑容,他给予我的关心和体贴,都让我觉得温暖。他的幽默有时候也会让我哈哈大笑。

谢谢您,我生活中的‘暖炉’!我也希望我能够成为我身边的人的‘暖炉’。



01 June 2007

我的同事(Jenna and Jacqueline),还有我,都很喜欢这首歌。因为我们都觉得这首歌的歌词很有意义,所以想和你们分享这首歌。

爱得太迟
歌手:古巨基 作曲:楊鎮邦@宇宙大爆炸
填詞:林夕 編曲:雷頌德

我過去 那死黨 早晚共對
各也紮職以後 沒法暢聚
而終於相約到 但無言共對 疏淡如水

日夜做 見爸爸 剛好想呻
卻霎眼  看出他 多了皺紋
而他的蒼老感 是從來未覺 太內疚擔心

最心痛是 愛是太遲
有些心意 不可等某個日子
盲目地發奮 忙忙忙其實自私
夢中也習慣 有壓力要我得志

最可怕是 愛需要及時
只差一秒 心聲都已變歷史
忙極亦放肆 見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好 偏要推說等下一次

我也覺 我體質 彷似下降
看了症得到是 別要太忙
而影碟 都掃光 但從來未看 因有事趕

日夜做 儲的錢 都應該夠
到聖誕 正好講 跟我白頭
誰知她開了口 未能挨下去 已恨我很久

錯失太易 愛得太遲
我怎想到 她忍不到那日子
盲目地發奮 忙忙忙從來未知
幸福會掠過 再也沒法說鍾意

愛一個字 也需要及時
只差一秒 心聲都已變歷史
為何未放肆 見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好 不要相信一切有下次

相擁我所愛又花幾多秒 
這幾秒能夠做到又有多少
未算少 足夠遺憾忘掉

多少抱憾 多少過路人
太懂估計 卻不懂愛錫自身
人人在發奮 想起他朝都興奮
但今晚未過 你要過也很吸引

縱不信運 你不過是人
理想很遠 愛於咫尺卻在等
來日別操心 趁你有能力開心
世界有太多東西發生
不要等到天上俯瞰

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